Rebirth Rebuild

5572197407_a0047238a6_bKnowing the muck is coming and being in the middle of it are two different things.  Last summer, under the Cancer/Capricorn eclipses of July, the horizon line began to take form.  I found it comforting this morning to wake and reread the words I wrote during that lunation cycle.  I know I knew this was coming and I know I was preparing myself for it.  But walking the walk is the task required of me now.  And I have to trust that I have readied myself for this moment.

Looking ahead, the sky presents a final Capricorn/Cancer eclipse of the cycle on July 5, 2020.  Something told me to take a look at that lunation chart this morning, and Jupiter, Pluto, and Saturn will return in retrograde to the almost exact points they are in today, March 19.  The Sun/Moon polarities will be in Cancer/Capricorn 14.

The Sabian Symbol positions for these degrees, as translated by Australian astrologer Lynda Hill, are:

Capricorn 14: Capricorn 14: AN ANCIENT BAS-RELIEF CARVED IN GRANITE REMAINS A WITNESS TO A LONG-FORGOTTEN CULTURE

The Task:  This Symbol shows the ability, or the need, to learn from the past, or to see the beauty and meaning inherent in ancient civilizations, their monuments and cultures.

The Caution:  The Caution: Old and outworn things. Unchanging and unbending minds. Being intense. Stubborn. Feeling stuck, like no growth is possible. Obsession with the past. Frigidity.

Cancer 14 A VERY OLD MAN FACING A VAST DARK SPACE TO THE NORTHEAST

The Task:  This Symbol shows that you may be looking for some help or spiritual guidance, but it may be difficult to find through the usual channels. As we become more enlightened there is a greater ability to see spiritual truth in unexpected places. There needs to be a trust and courage that your inner wisdom is in touch with the higher truth.

The Caution: ‘Staring into the void’, a lack of purpose or a feeling of abandonment. Losing faith. Being deserted by government. Exploitation and abandonment.

This speaks to a moment in which we look around, see the desolation wreaked by this outer and inner war we are waging, this change we have called through our own fear of walking the walk we all know needs to happen.  Pluto brings fear, Saturn brings resistance, but Pluto also brings rebirth and Saturn brings rebuilding/responding with responsible action.  As they finish their dance, we finish ours.  We are learning that we have to be more responsible, conservative creatures on this planet and Pluto/Capricorn/Jupiter/Mars are bringing us this lesson.  The beauty is that we are capable of this change.   And in this we must find gratitude for it.

 

Building and Breaking

pexels-photo-372153We arrive at the hot mess of this high point of summer with heavy things on the mind.  What matters most in the balance of your life?  What are you willing to release in order to reclaim some freedom and room to grow in the right direction?  The Capricorn/Cancer axis is alive with power struggles and emotional turmoil, internal and well, just read the paper.

The truth is we are all trying to determine what needs to be dissolved, destroyed, repaired, or resurrected in order to move into a higher, more loving state of being.  Systems in our lives that are corroded have to be dismantled.  Can this be done through love or need it be done with banners and spears?  We will find out over the next year ahead.  Lines are being drawn and the issues are crystallizing.  Under this energy, insecurity reveals itself as authoritarianism, and if you find yourself trying to control another person, ask yourself how else you may be using that energy?  squirrel-112727_1280

Mercury is also retrograde in Leo heading back into Cancer, and you may feel extra sensitive and unclear in the days ahead.  Take it easy.  What feels urgent can wait for action until August.  Inaction can be the most powerful form of action.  Sit with what feels wrong, sit with what feels right.  Just sit for a moment and experience.

The rest of your life depends on the choices you are making over the next six months; Capricorn and Cancer reflect our ambition, our need for privacy and retreat.  Our need to feel safe and productive butts up against a need to be “in charge” and “in control”.  What does love mean?  What does possession mean?  How do the two get confused?

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Inside Outward Bound

9268308111_dd53d20d75_bWe are in the middle of an eclipse window, and this pocket of energy heralds transformation that may be more tangible in 2020.  How tangible does it really need to feel, you might be asking at this point?  I believe everyone can feel the change even if a vocabulary for action has not been published.  We know what needs to happen, but the scale feels so large: how to move the boulder that is bureaucratic inertia?  As I write this, I am watching an ant run circles around the perimeter of a circular side table.  No way out of this cycle!!!  At some point, this ant has to look down or up.  If it would just stop for a minute and think.  We are being invited to do the same while fighting a conflicting impulse to run circles of exhaustion.  This is thanks to the approaching Mercury retrograde conspiring with a Mars/Uranus square and an evolutionary eclipse window designed for regeneration.

While the new moon eclipse felt gentle in the sign of Cancer, eclipses always mean tide changes.  If you have not been able to access the intuitive messages, trust that major energy is moving outward and into the sign of Leo; with that, an action-oriented Mars square to the destabilizer, Uranus.  Uranus shifted into the immovable earth energy of Taurus, a sign that only mobilizes when the stakes reach transformation levels.  Change or die.  Uranus is here to bring that mandate.

Get-off-the-couch Mars and mental Mercury entered Leo this past week.  Time for a creative plan.  Mercury stops up short, however, and turns retrograde toward Cancer for reflection on emotional security and intuitive messaging.  Mars, however, is butting heads at full force with the revolutionary, Uranus.  A metaphor for Uranus awakened in Taurus is ‘earthquake’.  This is not so much a metaphor in California as an awakening of the earth.  Mars and Uranus began this dance on July 2 and the exact opposition runs to July 11.  There have already been 2 major earthquakes this week as the fault lines dial ‘yes’ to pressure release.

This is destructive, creative energy being expressed.  The planet is taking that intuitive need for change and pushing it toward action.  How can we use our own cathartic eruption in a positive way?  How can we embrace the shifting sands and use them as motivation for a new approach to living?  What needs dismantling for new growth to occur?

The full moon eclipse in Capricorn may bring answers.  These answers will feel partial as we continue to learn the lessons of building and breakage for the next year ahead.  As we tremble with change, with charge, we are revitalized.  Time to trust that the body has the knowledge our minds won’t/can’t/wonder how to fully organize into action.  Inward is onward is outward is the name of this train.  Ears to the tracks.

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A dog growling at the window..

It isn’t mine.  I’m dog-sitting for friends away in Europe.  This dog is not my problem.  Or is it?  What is my responsibility to the fearful watchdog at the window in the next room.  Is this my house or isn’t it?  Who let the dog inside?  How can I calm an anxiety filled animal, a trained animal whose fear overrides logic, becoming dangerous for everyone in the house.  Particularly my eleven pound ball of scruff with a target on her back.

This snarling dog is an energetic theme happening in the world right now.  The light of Monday’s Sagittarian full moon paled in comparison to the rising hackles in everyone’s etheric field thanks to planetary buildup in Cancer and Capricorn.  Mars faced off Saturn late last week, and if you felt frayed, thank the planet of aggression in the sign of guardianship, Cancer.  Today, as I write this, Mercury, planet of the mind catches up to Mars, and they are both facing down Pluto this week.  Fear creates aggression and in this case, aggression is seeking anything to be fearful of, creating a lot of snarling dogs at windows.

What I have to remember is that the snarling dog in my house is otherwise a delightful beast; circumstances have piled up around his reality.   His pack is in Europe, he is dealing with a loss of status in a house with an older dog, and his anxiety has grown dangerous to the household.  It is painful to see and imperative that I maintain boundaries that keep everyone safe.  It is exhausting.  All the doors.

I suppose the question for anyone reading this is:  who else is losing her cool in this heated cosmic climate?  One only need look at the US/Iran crisis in development to get a sense of the way fear and a lack of trust spiral into aggression and chaos.  On both sides.  This dance of authority and fear is one we are being asked to study between now and 2020 when the stakes are higher than ever.

If you feel like you are pretending that a growling dog in your life is not your problem, think about that a bit longer.  Does the situation call for boundaries, intervention, or maybe a little bit of both?  The flip side of aggression is love and surrender.  Mercury wants us to explore how we can create safety without becoming aggressive and fearful.  Be mindful.

Fear is in the air.  We are all learning to dance with it.  If you think you are not a snarling dog in the room, ask yourself where you feel most threatened.  Check in to ensure you are not projecting aggression without consciously intending to do so.  Trickster energy can be anyone’s undoing.  Who is dangling the bait?  Who’s taking it.

Peace and ease through these challenges to us all.

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Chihuahua baring his teeth at the threat of having his bone taken away.  David Shankbone, photographer.

Feeling Hawkish

red-tailed_hawk_with_moon_over_estero_bay_ca_-_composition_red-tail-moon-composite-2630s_2832366091329Under the fumes of the Gemini new moon, restlessness has set in.  I spent the last 24 hours feeling artificially hurried and motivated at the same time.  Hello Gemini burst.  Hello brainstorm.  When Gemini energy has no creative outlet, anxiety erupts.  Worse, yet, aggression.  But the urge to do everything at once can be paralyzing.  If you are feeling this way, what do you do?

I have a list in my computer called “Cleaning List”.  It was not intended and the name serves no good reason, but I keep what I call aspirational items alongside tasks and am at peace with moving items down the line and altering them when I cannot get things done.  But, in Gemini moments like these, the list becomes an anchor.  Panic.  Put it on the list.  Repeat.  Just as I was set to go to the university office this morning, I sat down and began knocking things off of my digital cleaning list at home.  Best laid plans.  And I wasn’t going to accomplish this blog.  It wasn’t on the list.  But as I prepared to stand and leave the house, a red-tailed hawk dramatically touched down on the power pole twenty feet from my window, just so we could share a breath, gaze eye to eye.

Hawks are busy birds.  Keen-eyed, intelligent, focused and skilled hunters.  My neighborhood development has uprooted their natural habitat, and I have watched with admiration in the way this territorial bird has adapted.  We are all in acute adaptability mode these days, and Gemini energy infuses us with curiosity, agility, and a homeopathic dose of paranoia if we permit it.  What is the creative project calling you toward focus right now?  More likely there are two.  What active meditation is called for to keep you from running off rails?  Venus joins the sun in Gemini just after Mercury dips into Cancer this month.  Time to say yes and yes also, this and that, please.

Cheers to the changing winds.

 

Mirrors and Windows

Sabian Symbol Taurus 12:  A Young Couple Window shopping:  Desire, Craving of Material Goods that reflect Inner Worth

This full moon is all about values and value systems.  It is about that naive, youthful desire to transform inner worth through outer, material transformation.  The solar complement to this is Sabian Symbols 12:  Officials at an Embassy Ball.  This speaks of political strategizing, mingling for power, game-playing, and protocols.  Desire is in direct confrontation with power systems one may feel left out of – who is the gate crasher in your life, or what idea is gate crashing your own inner psyche?  Rather than challenging power systems around you, what internal order is prohibiting full expression of your singular inner wealth?

This is a time of transformation, and Jupiter in Scorpio is encouraging such change in our world.  If it feels like the closets have burst open in our lives, it is all to the service of clearing and re-framing our relationships with inner and outer power.  If it feels like gate crashing power systems in the outer world, imagine the barriers that are being overrun in your own mind and go gently; but by all means proceed ahead into those shadows that wield great influence in your subconscious mind.

Outwardly, Saturn is in a helpful alignment with his wild-child father, Uranus.  Maturation is being shown a path toward liberation – mental, spiritual, and perhaps even physical…  We are burning away old philosophies and re-imagining what it means to be human, in the singular and collective ways.

We can’t have everything – where would we put it?  Enjoy the clearing to have sweeter relationship with what we do have.  Enjoy the fall,

 

Caroline

Image Credit:  Karin Beate Nøsterud/norden.org [CC BY 2.5 dk (http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/2.5/dk/deed.en)%5D, via Wikimedia Commons

Both Sides Now.

Full moon in Aries October 5, 2017 @ 2:40 pm at 12.43 degrees.

“Aries 13 A bomb that fails to explode is now safely hidden from view.”

Traditionally, this is the harvest moon, and a time of celebration of self and community.  This moon, however, may not feel so much  like a celebration as a wake.  And hopefully a wake-up call.  The Aries full moon reflects identity issues in relation to social contracts.  This particular lunar degree, Aries 13, is the degree of adolescent frustration; although one might be relieved the bomb failed to go off, it also reflects a failed revolution due to ego conflict and a return to the status quo of the oppressive power order.  This full moon is about identity reflection, about humility, and about growing up and out of our own lower frequencies.  The self-oriented Aries moon is butting heads with the Sun and mental-governing Mercury conjunct in the sign of harmony and balance, Libra.  Libra likes the status quo; Aries wants revolution.    We’ve been getting a lot of lessons in these spheres all year.  It is worth noting that Jupiter is in its final few days of traveling through Libra, asking us to think about social order, what we are willing to sacrifice for the status quo, and what needs to be done to maintain harmony in disruptive times?  We are all being asked to consider who we are and how we can pioneer this world forward; we must risk these impulses to blow up the world in order to create a new one.  Frustration runs hot, high, and heavy.

On the same day, Mars and Venus unite in their once-every-two-to-three year dance with each other.  Fortunately, they are conjoined in the grounded, practical sign of Virgo.  Virgo wants to repair, to mend, and to sew things together in a fastidious manner.  Our masculine and feminine forces are asking us to tend to the small inner work on ego and self-gratification.  Mars and Venus in Virgo encourage us to plant a seed for tomorrow rather than burn the field of today.

Where you feel thwarted, devise a reasonable action plan. Where you feel humiliated, make a list of gratitude for all you’ve learned.  Take what you’ve outgrown and lovingly offer it to the earth, sending it off in service to new use.  Where you feel lack, pray inwardly for fertile mental/emotional terrain that will nurture your imagined seed of fulfillment.  Take the long view.  Take the deep breath.

And by all means, yes:  Love yourself under this full moon, but love yourself enough to see yourself for who you are, who you no longer wish to be, and who you will yourself to become.

 

*Image from NASA Jet Propulsion Library.  Labeled for reuse.

I and Thou

Full moon in Aquarius August 7, 2017 @ 2:11 pm/et.

“Aquarius 16: A big business man at his desk.”

This full moon lunar eclipse in Aquarius reflects a culmination of energy that began as far back as 1998, when a lunar/solar, Aquarian/Leo, eclipse pairing mirrored the exact degrees we are experiencing this month.  This energy is all about self-expression and the ways the individual brings her gifts forward in service to the collective.  There is a balancing act to be performed in all of our lives between shining our individual lights and serving the greater good; for the last 19 years, this growth cycle has brought us all to a place of conclusion with regard to such choices.  One might ask:  How can I get my ego out of the way while looking at the big picture?  What is my purpose as part of one collective being, and how does that purpose bring creative joy and fulfillment to my individual soul?

Whatever process took seed in August of 1998 is up for review.   Wherever you have the Leo/Aquarian axis in your natal chart is the place to take stock of your growth, lessons, and change.  During this particular Aquarian eclipse, Mars is aligned with the Sun in Leo, making egotistic impulses glaringly bright.  This provides a good mirror through which to reflect on our desire to be seen versus our desire to serve.  What is winning out in your life right now?  What use is it to attract attention if it does not reflect our highest impulses?  Combining the cool-headed, collective nature of Aquarius with Leo’s capacity to inspire through personal bravery, take a minute under this moon to consider how you fit into the community, how you function as a part of the collective organism in this world.  Where does ego get in your way?  And, how would your highest self like to guide this collective as part, not driver, of our vehicle toward evolution?  The Aquarius/Leo axis teaches us that the most unselfish thing we can do for the collective is to tend to ourselves quietly.  No tip jar…

This is challenging inner work that is easy to avoid; under this energy, we can get sidetracked by the shallower natures of Leo and Aquarius:  drama and rebellion.  If you find yourself wanting to tip over apple carts this month just to get a rise or make your point, think about what could use rearranging internally that will protect you from such oversensitive reactions to outer stimuli.  There will be plenty of outer stimuli to provoke.  Aquarius moon asks you to have the power to be you without need for applause, praise, condescension, or competition.

Peace to all that,

Caroline

Flower Power

Full moon in Scorpio May 10, 2017 @ 5:42 pm at 20.24 degrees.

“Scorpio 21: Obeying his conscience, a soldier resists orders.”

This Sabian Symbol is appropriate for the full moon that coincides with the Venus retrograde resolution of spring.  This entire spring has been challenging our individualities; our identities have been under a thorough review, and we are now in a space to release that which is not in align with our inner voice and sense of purpose.  Scorpio energy is about palpable power dynamics, and it is about the ability to penetrate calm surfaces to get to the heart of any matter creating dis-ease down below.  This full moon in Scorpio invites deep clearing with the aid of laser-sharp intuition.  The combination of this full moon with transiting Mercury conjunct its higher-octave, Uranus, in the sign of Aries calls to mind the Ace of Swords.  Clarity of mind, heart, and soul is available now.  Be careful with the sword of truth.  Questions to consider during this transit:  are others’ expectations of me in alignment with my inner truth?  Where do my deepest allegiances lie, and what in my life is not honoring them?  Where in my life am I being challenged to stand my ground and uphold my values, and against what or whom?

 

This is a lunation calling for bravery, inner morality, faith in one’s individual conscience, and accepting the consequences of aligning with one’s truth.  Put another way, what choice do you face that contains a cowardly, or soul-stilting option?  What makes the cowardly option appealing?  What makes it an impossible thing to surrender your destiny over?

 

This may feel like a lonely transit, but a breakthrough in perspective is also graspable and can bring the liberation you seek.

 

Schools in for Summer!

Here comes summer school:

2-month foundation class in astrology

Astrology Arts:  Foundations

Level One:  Vocabulary Lessons = $160.00/individual, 8 2-hour class meetings

Learning any new language takes practice, community, and commitment.  This intro-level astrology course explores its foundational aspects through an exploration of language components:  the sun signs, the planetary bodies, and the houses of the astrological chart.  This course provides the structure for students to practice mastery of these entities before proceeding onto the highway of chart casting.

In the learning process, students will be reading, writing lyric essays, crafting poetry, and creating visual art representations of the material covered.  Weeks will alternate between reading and assimilating new material and  translating this information into a visual representation.  This method melds intellectual and experiential learning practices to work with the vocabulary, integrating it into your reality.  It also provides the reflective space to creatively explore aspects of your own astrological makeup.

Participation is required for all 8 sessions to honor the group container and to honor your own learning process.  Each student is expected to complete the creative/reflective homework before each class meeting; all work will be peer reviewed and discussed in each class meeting, and written feedback from the instructor will follow.  At the workshop’s end, each student will conduct a brief presentation that interprets one active house of his or her birth chart, applying the skills used in class.

required textbook:

The Only Way to Learn Astrology, Volume 1, Second Edition 2nd Edition, by Marion D. March and Joan McEvers

Available here:

https://www.amazon.com/Only-Way-Learn-Astrology-Second/dp/1934976016/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1490032724&sr=8-1&keywords=The+Only+Way+to+Learn+Astrology

 

Course Syllabus:

week one:  Introduction to the Course and Participants.

Week Two:  Signs of the Zodiac I:  reading discussion and personal essay

Week Three:  Signs of the Zodiac II: creative integration assignment

Week Four:  Planets of our Solar System I: reading discussion and personal essay

Week Five:  Planets of our Solar System:  creative integration assignment

Week Six:  Houses of the Zodiac Chart:  reading discussion and personal essay

Week Seven:  Houses of the Zodiac Chart:  creative integration assignment

Week Eight:  Individual Presentations and Synthesis

 

For students who complete level one, advances courses are forthcoming.

Details:  The class will meet on Saturday mornings at Heart Path, 10 – 12. Dates are:  June 17, 24, July 1 (might move due to forthcoming holiday) July 9 ( a Sunday shift), July 15, 22, 29, August 5.  August 12th is a backup if the class chooses not to meet on the 1st.

Questions?  Registration?

Contact:  Caroline Young, missoliney@gmail.com.  404-667-9571.

Caroline Young is a poet, painter, writing instructor, and astrologer.  For more on Caroline, visit treehouseastrology.com.