Knowing the muck is coming and being in the middle of it are two different things. Last summer, under the Cancer/Capricorn eclipses of July, the horizon line began to take form. I found it comforting this morning to wake and reread the words I wrote during that lunation cycle. I know I knew this was coming and I know I was preparing myself for it. But walking the walk is the task required of me now. And I have to trust that I have readied myself for this moment.
Looking ahead, the sky presents a final Capricorn/Cancer eclipse of the cycle on July 5, 2020. Something told me to take a look at that lunation chart this morning, and Jupiter, Pluto, and Saturn will return in retrograde to the almost exact points they are in today, March 19. The Sun/Moon polarities will be in Cancer/Capricorn 14.
The Sabian Symbol positions for these degrees, as translated by Australian astrologer Lynda Hill, are:
Capricorn 14: Capricorn 14: AN ANCIENT BAS-RELIEF CARVED IN GRANITE REMAINS A WITNESS TO A LONG-FORGOTTEN CULTURE
The Task: This Symbol shows the ability, or the need, to learn from the past, or to see the beauty and meaning inherent in ancient civilizations, their monuments and cultures.
The Caution: The Caution: Old and outworn things. Unchanging and unbending minds. Being intense. Stubborn. Feeling stuck, like no growth is possible. Obsession with the past. Frigidity.
Cancer 14 A VERY OLD MAN FACING A VAST DARK SPACE TO THE NORTHEAST
The Task: This Symbol shows that you may be looking for some help or spiritual guidance, but it may be difficult to find through the usual channels. As we become more enlightened there is a greater ability to see spiritual truth in unexpected places. There needs to be a trust and courage that your inner wisdom is in touch with the higher truth.
The Caution: ‘Staring into the void’, a lack of purpose or a feeling of abandonment. Losing faith. Being deserted by government. Exploitation and abandonment.
This speaks to a moment in which we look around, see the desolation wreaked by this outer and inner war we are waging, this change we have called through our own fear of walking the walk we all know needs to happen. Pluto brings fear, Saturn brings resistance, but Pluto also brings rebirth and Saturn brings rebuilding/responding with responsible action. As they finish their dance, we finish ours. We are learning that we have to be more responsible, conservative creatures on this planet and Pluto/Capricorn/Jupiter/Mars are bringing us this lesson. The beauty is that we are capable of this change. And in this we must find gratitude for it.
We arrive at the hot mess of this high point of summer with heavy things on the mind. What matters most in the balance of your life? What are you willing to release in order to reclaim some freedom and room to grow in the right direction? The Capricorn/Cancer axis is alive with power struggles and emotional turmoil, internal and well, just read the paper.

We are in the middle of an eclipse window, and this pocket of energy heralds transformation that may be more tangible in 2020. How tangible does it really need to feel, you might be asking at this point? I believe everyone can feel the change even if a vocabulary for action has not been published. We know what needs to happen, but the scale feels so large: how to move the boulder that is bureaucratic inertia? As I write this, I am watching an ant run circles around the perimeter of a circular side table. No way out of this cycle!!! At some point, this ant has to look down or up. If it would just stop for a minute and think. We are being invited to do the same while fighting a conflicting impulse to run circles of exhaustion. This is thanks to the approaching Mercury retrograde conspiring with a Mars/Uranus square and an evolutionary eclipse window designed for regeneration.

Under the fumes of the Gemini new moon, restlessness has set in. I spent the last 24 hours feeling artificially hurried and motivated at the same time. Hello Gemini burst. Hello brainstorm. When Gemini energy has no creative outlet, anxiety erupts. Worse, yet, aggression. But the urge to do everything at once can be paralyzing. If you are feeling this way, what do you do?



